Tough time in the mission field!!!!
Hi family hope you all had a great week!!! :) I have
been doing good. I am making progress but the progress is slow and
taxing. thank you for all of the words of encouragement they really mean
a lot. So many people have told me so much and it is all awesome, I think I have to just keep moving
forward. I am trying my hardest to push all of the negative thoughts away
and to keep moving forward. It is hard and I really want to give
up. I just want to come home because then I won't hold myself to such a
high standard and the rules won't be so strict. I feel like I don't get a
break. As a missionary I am constantly working no real time to just relax
and chill even P-Days are crazy. But is it really me that wants to give
up or Satan? I am just trying to find ways to overcome this. I have
been turning to prayer I have been on my knees so many times asking for help
and for strength. I know He is there and he is helping me but I want
instant peace and joy for it all to be over and to not be walking through the dark
forest anymore. That is not how it works though. I might not know
the reason why or why it is so hard but I just have to keep moving
forward. My best friend my Savior Jesus Christ is with me every step of
the way. He has gone through exactly what I am going through right
now. He is there to help me and he is helping me. If he was not
with me I would not be out here. We can't do it alone we need his help I
know he is helping me even though I keep stumbling. Just like you said
Dani he is the one who picks me up. I am stumbling so much but this whole
life is a learning experience. I think the hardest thing for me is I feel
like I am wasting the Lord's time because my mission is so short and it goes by
so fast and this has been my main energy consumer the last little while.
I feel like I need to be helping others which I still am but I feel like I can
be doing so much more but this has been my main focus. Man Satan is so
strong. I want to just go back to Mudgee I loved it there. I felt
like a missionary I was happy and I was lost in the work. I am no longer
lost in the work and I don't know how to get back to the way I was. I am
just trying to make it day by day. It is hard I want to give up but this
life is meant to be hard. It was not meant to be easy. I have a
quote on the wall from Elder Holland, "it was not easy for Him so why
should it be easy for us, salvation was never easy." I love this
quote!!!!! Jesus Christ wanted to give up he said if there is any other
way. I want to give up I just want to go home and not be a
missionary. My best friend did not give up even though he wanted
to. I want to become just like my Savior Jesus Christ and so I am not
going to give up. It is going to be hard, everyday will be hard.
What he went through in his life was hard. But he was blessed for what he
did because he kept going. I KNOW that I will be blessed if I keep
going. If we make it through this life we will be saved and be able to
live in eternal life with our Father in Heaven and our best friend Jesus
Christ. WE have to keep going I have to keep going and if we do the
blessing at the end will be so worth it. I know that if I keep going on
my mission at the end it will be so worth it.
What's going on in Macarthur?
Sorry I haven't really talked a whole lot about
the work and the area here. Me and Elder Plata and getting a long really
good. We are becoming really good friends and we are really good teachers
together. One thing that brings me comfort is just like you said dad
"the spirit does not dwell in unholy tabernacles" I feel the spirit
so much everyday. I have taught some of the best lessons on my mission so
far and the spirit has been so strong. We were able to give a little girl
a blessing the other day and the next day she was 100% better. It
reassures me that the spirit is with me so I am still doing a good job.
We are working with quiet a few people. Were working with one family a Less Active
family the J___ they have an 8 year old daughter who has not been
baptized yet and they have committed to baptism and we are going to set the
date this week. We are hoping for the 6th of Feb right before the end of
the transfer. We are also working with a Part Member family the N___.
The mom and dad are very less active but they have a son who is 10 who is not
baptized. The auntie and uncle live with them as well who are very
active. The boy T_____ want's to get baptized but we just have to talk
to his parents and teach him the lessons. We are also working with
another couple. A____ and T___, A___ is less active and T___ is an
investigator. We are trying so hard to get them to come to church but
they are having a hard time keeping commitments. We have taught
such good lessons with them and the spirit has been so strong and we gave there
daughter a blessing but they for some reason won't come to church. Haha
and they live like 3 blocks away from the chapel. We are working with
them and continue to keep growing there seeds. These are some of the
people we are working with. We have a few more but these are the main
ones we are really working with. It amazes me through everything that I
am going through the work still moves forward. and even though I might
not believe it myself God is using me as an instrument to bring others closer
to Christ.
Me and Elder Plata are doing great!!!
Haha I just had to get used to him cuz he does
things a little different. He's awesome though and I love him. That
is one thing I have loved him from the very beginning and now we are starting
to really become close friends. He also oh my gosh! is such a good
cook!!!! Haha I want him to be my own personal chef when I come home. :)
I think the best thing he has made so far well everything but he makes these
wings in a sweet chili sauce on rice and oh my gosh!!!!!! There so good.
He also makes the best soups and stews!!!! I just wish we had a barbecue
because he said he makes some really good things on the barbecue.
We heard that there was a big storm a few days ago!!
Man the weather here in Australia is so
weird. It has been so hot here like I am dripping sweat when I am doing
my studies. The hottest it has gotten is 43 degrees Celsius (109.4 F) with humidity
so everything just sticks to you but then next thing you know its a thunder
storm like pouring rain with thunder and lightning but it's still hot.
When it rains here it doesn't cool down it stays hot. Haha the other day
we were out all day in another suburb in our area and we forgot our umbrellas
because it was hot and sunny in the morning and that afternoon it poured we
were soaking wet haha it was way fun though. We got so wet I could ring
out my tie. :)
Tidbits!!!!
Were down to a 2 man flat know because Elder
Tealofi went home he finished and Elder Lee got moved to a different
area. Haha funny story with Elder Tealofi he took my big
suitcase.:) Haha he asked all of us the night before he left if any of us
had a big suitcase he could borrow. I jokingly said he could use
mine. I didn't think anymore about and that night I went up stairs to go
to bed and all of his stuff was packed in my suitcase.:) Haha but he said
he'll bring it back cuz I don't need it for a year and a half. (mum and dad say WHAAAAAT???????!!!!!!) Haha we'll
have to see I might have to buy another one. :) Ya holy cow!!!! My
6 month mark is almost here I'm almost 1/4 of the way done. I have loved
my mission and I don't want it to end even though it has been so hard
especially right now I would not trade it for anything. The members in
this ward are awesome at feeding us but not at missionary work. That is
why where is 6 of us in the ward and were trying to get members more involved
and we will keep trying.
Wise words from the Elder
Elder Stott's motto:"move forward with faith in Christ,
a prayer in your heart, and a HUGE smile on your face and you can make it
through anything."
Got to GO!!!
I got to get going but thank you guys for everything I know
that I have you guys in my corner and are always there to support me and lift
me up and are always praying for me and I am so grateful for that. I have
heaps of pictures to send I just keep forgetting to send them hopefully I will
remember soon. Love all of you guys thanks for everything. Thanks
Dani for your email it helped a lot how is Patrick going? How are you
going? Thanks Love you guys talk to you next week and I want you to know
THAT I WILL NOT GIVE UP!!!!
Love Elder Stott
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